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[05 Aug 2006|01:50am] |
a nail left in the rain [by: me]
does any one fucking person care
in fact why should i dare
to see if they even listen
when i come near, no ones eyes glisten
in just a speck of dust
a nail left in the rain to rust
all alone with no one to turn to
when im feeling down, feeling blue
so many people love to see my cry
all of them who wish i would rather die
so i would be out of their way
they could be with out me for a day
i mean nothing to anyone
they just like to poke and have thier fun
i dont do anyone any good
at least not like i should
im just a speck of dust
a nail left in the rain to rust
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[29 Jul 2005|09:01pm] |
Today was a bad day at work.
There was this stupid guy who was asking for donations outside. And from 7-8 I had to be in the parking lot picking up all the carts. The guy kept verbally sexually harrassing me. I really should have told my manager but I didnt. He was in his 30's and he kept calling me gorgeous, which isnt to bad, but then he was calling my sexy and hinted that he wanted my number and kept telling me I need an older man or that he wishes he was 17 again so he could get with me. It made me so uncomfortable so I stayed away from him best I could. I really should have told my manager but I didnt.
If he comes back on sunday, cuz thats the next time I work, and if he hits on me again like that Im telling my manager.
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[25 Jul 2005|07:14pm] |
Freddy gave me 3 dozen red roses today.
But hes not at my house yet. He promised me he would come over today after he got off work. He should have been here 30 min ago. If he doesnt show up Im going to be very pissed off.
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[21 Jul 2005|10:39pm] |
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woot! im getting my belly button pierced tomorrow!
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[20 Jul 2005|10:52pm] |
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If you dress nicely, he calls you a snob. If you dress sexy, he calls you a slut. If you argue with him, he says you're stubborn. If you are quiet, he says you're stupid. If you call him, he says you're clingy. If he calls you, he says you should be grateful. If you don't love him, he'll try to win you. If you love him, he'll leave you. If you don't have sex with him, he says you don't love him. If you do, he says you're easy. If you tell him your problems, he'll say you're irritating. If you don't, he'll say you don't trust him. If you lecture him, he says you're bossy. If he lectures you, it's because he "cares." If you break a promise, you can't be trusted. If he breaks a promise, he had to. If you cheat, he'll expect it to be over. If he cheats, he expects to be given another chance. Either way...you never win.
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[18 Jul 2005|02:21pm] |
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What is a bitch?
Well, a bitch is a:
Beautiful
Individual
That
Causes
Hardons
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[17 Jul 2005|11:05pm] |
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I feel that sometimes, nobody's ever held me down and forced me to cry or made me hug them, or got to the inside of me. It's like I say, "oh I'm fine" and I walk away, and nobody has ever said "no you're not"
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[12 Jul 2005|11:14pm] |
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hmmm. back into my old ways. past week ive eaten less then a 1000 calories a day. past three days, less then 500. its kinda giving me a headache. but i still weigh 114.9 lbs. and freddy hasnt noitced yet. ive been out with him and i havent eaten when he eats but i dont think he's put two and two together yet. we'll see what happens.
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[11 Jul 2005|02:23pm] |
I got a job at vons today. I start sometime next week.
In the meantime. A couple things I wrote yesterday.
( quotes )
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[10 Jul 2005|08:36pm] |
I lost a friend today.
We had just started becoming friends and I told him everything about me.
As I lost him as a friend he gained a new friend.
He had been telling me that my boyfriend was cheating on me and so I told my boyfriend what he was saying.
My boyfriend called him up and yelled at him.
Then everything came out in the open, and now my boyfriend and him are friends again, even though they used to hate each other.
And my "friend" told my boyfriend that I annoy him and I dont go away.
So after, my boyfriend yelled at me.
I started crying and then he had the nerve to ask why I was crying.
I talked to my "friend". He said he was trying to help me but I didnt want it.
I know I tend to push help away sometimes, but I didnt mean to push away a friend too.
My lifes going to hell.
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[09 Jul 2005|10:27pm] |
something i wrote real quick after i called my boyfriend.
I called you up. When you picked up, I heard another girl in the background. The second I heard the other girls voice, my eyes swelled up with tears. So that’s what you were to busy doing to go out with me. Well, I had to say something because of caller ID. “I just wanted to talk if you weren’t busy.” “Umm…well I’ll call you later”. *click* That was the end of that conversation. How could you do such a thing to me, ditch me for another girl when you know I need you. I thought you might be the one to do something like this but I just always kept telling myself, no not him, he loves me. I guess I was wrong yet again. And why are you even out this late? If you were out with me you would have said you had to leave by now cuz your mom wanted you home. I guess that girl means more to you then I did. And hour passed. Im still crying and you still haven’t called. Wow, I never realized how much I didn’t mean to you, or how much you never cared. Now, if only I had the strength to leave you.
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[02 Jul 2005|06:02pm] |
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so, i bought the carmen electra arobic stiptease video...i hope it works and makes me all sexy and stuff for freddy. maybe i can get really good at this and fit and flexable (i bought a yoga video too) and for his bday i can give him something a little special. hehe.
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[30 Jun 2005|10:11pm] |
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w00t! i got my license yesterday!
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[28 Jun 2005|09:43pm] |
some stupid fucker in ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif) ____photofetish decided she didnt like one of my pictures and she "fixed" it for me. she/he was being a total bitch. fucker. The picture she didnt like is under the cut.
( picture )
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[26 Jun 2005|11:29pm] |
ha. some 20 year old guy i know who apparently likes me just asked me to sneak out of the house and go get drunk with him.
yeah right. like thats gonna happen.
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[24 Jun 2005|08:39pm] |
some random photos ive taken today and yesterday with my new camera.
( +16 )
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| w00t! |
[19 Jun 2005|08:47am] |
its my bday and i got a PT Crusier and a digital camera! yay! i got everything i wanted! I also got a cd and a book too.
Freddy came over real quick in the morning and he got me a dozen baby pink roses and a sweet card. only it would have been nice if he signed the card but whatever. oh yeah and he got my a pink heart shaped lolipop.
that boy better come to dinner tonight.
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[17 Jun 2005|01:11pm] |
During the summer my appitite (sp? lol) just goes out the window. its weird. i used to get mroe hungry during summer cuz i had nothing to do so i would eat. but this summer im like never hungry.
freddy and i got kinda rough yesterday and im paying for it today. i have bruises all up and down my thighs. they arent that bad and they are kinda small but theres several of them and one of them hurts everytime i walk. but thats ok. i had fun.
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